I still hear at times that I am living an alternative lifestyle or that I have made a gender choice to live as a woman. Neither is true, but I can understand why some are thinking those things. At times I do a bit of 360 hopping, clicking through the friends list of each blog I visit. Sometimes I get so deep that I forget where I started the hops. If “outsiders” are dong the same, no wonder they get the impression that “we” are living and doing as a matter of choice.

I have no real need to share my life on 360 or my website blog. I am happy living my life as the woman I was born to be and I go about my life without any real problems outside of trying to make ends meet. As I have mentioned many times, I have no problems out and everyone treats me with general respect from the clerk at the DMV to the shop keep at the corner market. No, I blog because I feel that many who are a bit nervous about starting their life may learn that the fear is largely false. No one is going to chase you down in the Mall yelling out obscene remarks. Now I know there is hatred in the world towards transgender persons, but if one is careful then one shouldn’t have to worry about bodily harm. I don’t know why I feel that I must try to help others. I think it came from watching my parents do the same. I remember my father handing money out to strangers many times when he had very little himself. It was the way of my parents and I guess it is the way of me.

I will admit that I am becoming a bit delusional lately about the whole transgender world. It comes from my 360 hops. I recently read a blog about a trans-woman who has been struggling with being her true self and trying to keep her marriage intact. From her blog you get the feeling of a tortured soul who needs to be herself, yet the thought of losing her wife is unbearable. She loves her wife, or so the story goes, more than life itself. The struggle to try and quash the woman inside to stay with her wife has driven her to the brink yet living without her wife is just as horrible as not being her true self. It really pains me to see her suffering in this manner, yet I am really unable to offer any real help. Then the story seems to take a shift. She writes about attending a party as a woman. She has another transgender person approach her and starts “feeling her up” and giving her complements. Her response to this stranger is not, “hey, I am married and in love with my wife” as she has stated so often in her story, but instead is, I am not ready for a sexual encounter yet. Then later in the story she recounts about kissing several transgender persons. My thoughts were if she would like it if her wife was kissing several strange men. How would she feel if the situation was reversed and it was her wife doing the same things?

Then another hop took me to another trans-woman, another transsexual woman. I do understand there is a difference between a cross dresser and a transsexual woman. Both are just as viable, but there is a difference. I won’t go into a discussion on those differences here because that is not the point of this rant if you will. This transsexual woman was whining about being kicked out of the house by her wife. In fairness, her wife did offer to pay the first four months rent on a flat. The reason for the boot that this trans-woman thought was so unfair? The wife didn’t like her bringing home her Tranny friends for sexual escapades in their bedroom. Oh, they had young children in the house as well. It appears that this trans-woman thought it was OK if Daddy went into the bedroom for some wild sex and made a lot of noises such as moans and groans that the wife and children could hear out in the living room. The wife was being unfair to her because she expected her husband to have a little bit of decency and respect for her and her children. They were in a marriage after all. Maybe it is just me, but I feel that there is sanctity in a marriage, especially when you are saying how much you are in love with your spouse.

Yes, if the “outsiders” are seeing some of the things I have seen on my 360 hops, no wonder they think it is all about wanting to live an alternative lifestyle and that I have made a choice to be a woman.